A Sleepless Night

Once again memories are turning in my bed & once again I can’t sleep.
I know my mind is muddy, but today I want to tell u that my heart is heavy.
I know this will be the longest night, wish this would be the last of its kind.
It seems again I am falling to her spell, wish I could drown as well.
I wished I could surrender my soul and shed the clothes that became my skin.
I wish she will see the blisters under my skin & could decide whether she want to lose or win.
I wish I could walk out of my mind and see where I lack behind.
I guess its time I run far away and try to find comfort in pain.
She thought I was asking for a second chance, but she never heard my voice.
So I want to scream at the top of my voice and wish she will show me a reason.
I can live with a reason but not with some choice.......................
Cause I know I will make the same mistake again............................................