The Dream I was afraid of

I was in my dream.....

And she was there at a distance. Talking laughing caressing her hair and looking beautiful than ever.

She was casting the same old spell on me and I was falling prey once again.

Her eyes wittily avoiding mine but compelling me to follow her gaze.

I started feeling weak in my knees, a thirst rising in my throat...........

And my false stubbornness started giving up.

There were people everywhere, People I know, People I care for , People in front of whom I don't want to lose my mask. I don't want them to see my weakness.

I don't want her to see me weak ......................... without her.

I was there standing soaking with her presence & she was there burning me with her ignorance.

I tried to run away but my senses were out my control to taste the glimpse of her as it may be.

Then suddenly everything around me stood still as if time stopped for an eternity......

And she was in front of me at a breathing distance , making me feel as if I am at the cross road.

The past started to unfold in front my eyes, The love that was in her eyes, The touch, the kiss............ The time I spent with her ten years back.

And I felt her hands touching my cheeks, Holding my face.

She smiled and I felt the caring she had for me.

Her eyes became serious and she told me........................

" May be I was searching for happiness for which I left you "

And I woke up ............................... Feeling Lost.